Honestly I gush over this crew. It’s one of those times when friends meet friends and everyone has a welcome seat at the table and on the stage ✨couldn’t think a better way to celebrate Ellie and Matt’s journey to the retirement coast. I have been so lucky to know people who are so good and welcoming and loving and full of life and light for others. Safe travels and all the luck and love in the world, friends💖
Here’s a few from a couple nights I was lucky enough to get to see many people I have loved since college. These people all made my last year in Columbia something unforgettable. I wouldn’t trade them for the world <3 excited for what our next reunions bring, since everyone seems to be making big moves this time around! . . On the realest note, the first set of pics was from a night that couldn’t have made me happier. We met up, hung out, and hung over together like that last year was no more than a week ago. And nobody died or got lost! Cheers to metal brunch my loves <3
The reality of the situation is pretty ‘meh.’ Nothing it very exciting from day to day. As if my current existence is just to pave the way for what’s next. And that’s incredible in its own way. I am so lucky for the mundane stability I am getting to enjoy, the only pressures being the goals I choose for myself. For most of my life, I would consider this a purgatorial cage I was more or less trapped in. Now it is a slow series of moments in life where I get to spoil myself. Eat well, sleep deeply and regularly, meet new people, drink responsibly, delve into my hobbies and dreams, and pace myself for what’s next. Life isn’t a race. So many people are going through their first big change out of higher education, and all I keep reminding them is “a year is nothing.” If you want to try something new or embrace something for your future, just go for it. (And be thankful you get to make such decisions out of opportunity and desire.) It all starts with gratitude. . . . Speaking of big changes, I get my babe @aida_hasanovic_ back very soon! So I thought I’d pull something from our archives. A cold day outside a city coffee shop developed on film with such rich warmth. It really is a beautiful medium.
I have felt so incredibly powerful the past couple weeks, I can’t even begin to explain it. Maybe it’s the people around me or the mindset I’ve managed to fall back into. I just really believe from the core of my being, I can do anything if I set my heart on it. It’s almost scary, feeling that level of responsibility and influence for one’s own life. And maybe something’s actually changed, or maybe it’s just a string of good days. But you can bet I’m taking in every drop of this energy while I’m so blessed to be wrapped in it ✨
Some things never change!!! But that doesn’t mean things aren’t added. Happy I got to spend another pride with @jakewobbe / @korakayyy Couldn’t have asked for a better friend to grow up alongside! I’m super proud of you and happy that I got to celebrate this year with such a fun community of friends you seem to have built ✨🌹 . No I also do not know what is happening with that lip-to-nose area in this pic either.
Today I slept the entire day away, and it was good. For the past few months, I have been working harder than I could have imagined at a service job I honestly don’t care much about. (Disproving my prior belief that my work ethic really only peaks when my heart is in my work.) I have been exhausting myself with taut neck and swollen knees, saving every penny. All this to afford myself an inch of financial opportunity that I can capitalize on. And despite how terrible it has been on my body and schedule and psyche some days, I feel like a badass. To see how hard I can work doing whatever because I believe in my long-term self, feels good. So, yeah, I spent a year having to take my main focus off my career and the arts. And some weeks it’s degrading and sucks and I’m so tired, my eyes feel like they are about to fall out of my head. But in the grand scheme of things, a year is nothing. To finish out a ‘gap year’ I was sure would be the death of my inner world, in good spirits with a lot of hunger and hope for what’s next... that’s pretty fucking great. I slept all day today because my body hurts and my eyes were falling out of my head. But when I woke up, I was ready to keep at it. Don’t disrespect yourself by not believing in your own journey. Buckle up, and do whatever you feel will give yourself the opportunity you need. . . . 📸 @aida_hasanovic_
I’ll tell you I love you, but I won’t promise I’ll stay. . . . Wowowowow these pictures @sarahthebeauu took of me have left me absolutely speechless. I have never felt more beautiful and delicate than I feel in the product of this shoot. Beyond that, the difference and care taken in shooting on film brings it to an undeniable level of loving artistry. I am beyond grateful for friends so willing to capture and celebrate each other, and I am wayy too lucky to be on the front end of their cameras. Thank you a million times for this ✨💖✨
Celebrate your body! Love your look, however you choose to look on any day!! I debated posting this because among many things, it is ‘basic,’ sexy, and some would say trying like reallly hard. HOWEVER, if you don’t get to be all of those things on your personal Instagram account (a platform arguably built on such content), then where can you feel confident and sexy and silly (even if it is because you’re clearly taking yourself too seriously)? I feel good in my body, some days more than others. So here is me on one of those days celebrating it!
Been in my head a lot recently thinking about what a moral and energy drain it is to promise loyalty to someone who doesn’t know the meaning of the word. However, I am a woman of mine. To be good and loyal, kind and strong, integral and forgiving, all contradict each other at many turns. And I’m just trying to figure out where and how my personal value needs to come before all those others. How do you grow out your claws without wanting to rip people apart? How do you light your ambition and never worry about burning anyone along the way? When does a desire to be selfless cross into a selfish desire only to be seen as such? And when does the desire to be righteous turn into a gold spray-painted soap box for hate and destruction? If morality is such a contradictory compass, how do you keep from getting lost? These thoughts exhaust me. . . . . @peachyamityfilm @peachyamity
I spy three babes doing the absolute MOST and still having no clue where to put our arms 🙆🏼♀️ Love y’all and getting to POSE the night away feeling fierce and fancy-free
I’m either calling him Mr. Butthead or A Very God Boy. Either way, the employees thought the latter and brought him bacon. @peachyamity Also “I worked three days of doubles and opened that morning” eyes are very real in that last pic lol
“Of Adam's first wife, Lilith, it is told that ere the snakes, her sweet tongue could deceive. And her enchanted hair was the first gold— and still she sits, young while the earth is old.” -Dante Gabriel Rossetti
My friend’s making me miss Boston and the jam-packed, amazing weekend I had there with such dearly loved friends. Sitting on a windy ferry with LeeAnna to Bunker Hill and playing children’s games in the Constitution museum will forever be one of those delightfully pure and special moments burned into my brain.
Showed up seven years too late for PNTM’s Garden Party shoot . . . . @par.contre
When we all fall asleep, where do we go? . . . . 📸 @aida_hasanovic_
A few years I started to count the days between hearing “I love you.” For over a year, I haven’t gone a day without saying or hearing them. And that’s beautiful and amazing. Push the heck through those isolating moments with music, art, reading, running, whatever you can do- because there is something else on the other side, and it’s spectacular. . . . . 📸 @aida_hasanovic_